Seek Me

Wow! What a week we have all just been through with the Life Action Summit.  I am daily hearing of the work God did and is continuing to do as a product of us coming together and intentionally focusing on Him.

I have been so blessed to hear many of you share your testimonies.  Some of you shared during our services and some have shared privately but one thing has remained the same in all of them - the presence of God has changed our lives.  Is is so amazing to see how faithful God is to transform our lives as we allow Him to do so.

For this article I wanted to share with you a significant thing the Lord has done in my life.  In 2009 Lindsey and I were fortunate enough to spend ten days traveling through Israel.  This was a time in my life where I was really seeking the Lord for who He was calling me to be.  I was wanting to see a greater depth in my own life and in the ministry I was working with.

One of our stops was on the ancient site of Shiloh, where the tabernacle dwelt among the people of God for so many years.  It is such an incredible thing to know you are sitting close to the place where the presence go God was amongst His people in such a unique and powerful way.

As we sat and reflected and prayed, I remember crying out to the Lord for breakthrough and for understanding.  In that moment, He spoke something very simple.  He said, “seek me desperately.”  I’ll admit I was taken aback by the statement.  It was simple yet I couldn’t help but think, “aren’t I already doing that?”

I left that moment not really sure what God was going to do next.  I knew I had so much more to learn but I had no idea what it was I needed to learn.

Over the next several years the Lord took Lindsey and I on an amazing journey.  In that time we adopted our daughter, had our son, moved from Texas to Missouri, and then back to Texas again.  God taught us to be content in Him, and taught us what it meant to simplify our lives.  However, even in all of this I didn't really feel like I had a grip on what He wanted from me when He said, “seek me desperately.”

However, on Wednesday night of the Summit it all came together.  Ryan, the speaker for the night, asked us to list the top four things we need God for right now.  I’ll admit, I was having trouble getting to the third one when he began explaining how easily that list should flow if we were truly dependent on the Lord for everything.  I couldn’t believe it.  I was having trouble thinking of what I needed God for.

As the Holy Spirit began to convict me of my dependance on myself and I repented of my self-righteousness, I heard the Lord speak what I had been waiting to hear since that moment on Shiloh.  He simply said, “you will seek Me desperately if you need me for everything.”

I had been waiting on that word for several years and I finally understood.  I will only seek Him to the measure that I believe I need Him.  If I am deceived and somehow believe I can live the Christian life on my own, I won’t desperately seek the help of the Spirit.  But, if I recognize that without faith it is impossible to please God, my desperate need will meet His perfect provision.

What a simple but profound truth.  Praise the Lord for all He has said and done in these last days.  I pray we cherish all He has done while at the same time allowing Him to build on this work into all He wants to do.

Shalom,
Kendall McDonald